Expletives Heal
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Posted:Jun 30, 2013 6:40 pm
Last Updated:Jul 30, 2013 8:58 am
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Fuck, fuck fuck fuck, fuck me!
Rings in my ear- echoing that piercing sound;
Broken and ruined soul, lashing out,
Angst and frustration is running high.
Damn, damn damn damn, goddamn it!
I did not know this was coming- I am a fool;
Hurting and loathing, I need to vent,
My anger is getting the best of me.
Shit, shit shit shit, shitting me!
I am a loser- lower then whale shit;
Tears run down my face, I am heartbroken,
Despondency is running my life.
My life is such a mess, a fucking mess!
My heart is broken hearted- goddamn it.
My soul is lost, such a lonely shit,
Shit, fuck, damn- Expletives heal me.
My plans for today went to shit! Rain, did it to me...made me change my plans. I leave for my camp out and float trip tomorrow morning! LOL! But it did give me time to clean house, do laundry, and organize my camping equipment. I also had time to write. I was venting my frustrations and I thought about when I cuss the most...and it turns out I use expletives when I am getting over a relationship. How about you?
VF
May 30, 2013
 
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Stuff and Musings!
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Posted:Jun 28, 2013 2:41 pm
Last Updated:Sep 26, 2013 9:08 pm
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Hello to all of you Japanese lover.net bloggers!
I start my vacation today! Whoo hoo! I had hard time concentrating at work today, but I finally am done! So I plan to run three miles tomorrow for the Walk for ALS, it's at 0900 and I hope it doesn't rain! Then I am getting my camping gear ready and organized. I plan to go camping near one of our rivers in Missouri. I plan to go floating, canoeing, and fishing. I hope to catch a big small mouth bass! Then I plan to go to Six Flags and their water park. Then go to local museums and our zoo! On the 4th probably hang out with family! BBQing and drinking some beer.
I met up this week with some of my high school friends whom I had not seen in long time and we had a blasts. I looked around the table and noticed that we all looked pretty good for people who graduated high school 30 years ago...lol! We plan to meet again and maybe more people will join us.
I met a lady this week and we had a couple drinks at local bar. We had fun and we decided to see each other again after the holidays. Who knows what comes of it, but all I know it was fun. During the date I was at ease and I was fun and charming as usual. She too was laid back and we both are conversationalists...lol...and we had a blasts. I seem to like dating educated women (she has two masters). I wonder why?
I still amazed in the fact there are over 300 people who have visited my blog. I am sort of intimated at the volume of people stopping by. I hope it meets your expectations. I truly am writing for me. I need to write and vent my emotions and angst via poetry or just writing my thoughts and musings. But to tell the truth, it is a blast also...to have people reading what I write- it is very affirming!
I want to personally thank a couple of people from Japanese lover.net. Sweet_VM has sweet_VM been my friend, confidant, and mentor- Thank you from the bottom of my heart! Also, MyInnerVoice, MyInnerVoice has been a friend and good hostess to me as well. I truly hope I can be a good friend to them as well!
Lastly, I also want to say that there are two Groups: HNW HNW Bloggers, and Cloud Nine,Cloud Nine, which are a complete blasts. I am having so much fun with them. Both groups have fun people and fun things to do...very active! They both have been very welcoming to me and I really appreciate it!
I will try to blog when I can during my vacation, but with camping and museums, I will be pressed with time. Again thanks for visiting my blog! Also, yes I noticed I used "blasts" too many times in this bog, but I am on vacation and my mind is fixated on "blast"...I am going to have a blast on my vacation and I hope you will have blast this weekend too!
VF
On Vacation....see ya!
 
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Catastrophe of Love
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Posted:Jun 25, 2013 8:49 pm
Last Updated:Jul 7, 2013 9:17 pm
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How did I end up here at the Emergency Department of life?
The last thing I remember was- I walking along life’s journey,
Deadlines, commutes, power lunches, bills, and family,
Then I am flat on my back in need of two pints of heart’s essence;
How did I get here, the injured and bloodied soul?
I thought I had it all- the house, the two point three Televisions, and the devoted family,
I was the family man-loving and devoted father and husband,
Who lost it all in one fell swoop- unsuspecting crash of loves’ death;
How am I to survive this broken and painful emptiness?
The sore and tired bloodied mensch- ready to give up,
I am not prepared for the hard changes in my new single existence,
To start a new and accept that I am failure;
How to survive this traumatic smash up of fidelity?
The rehab of the heart is fickle and strange,
I am not ready for all these feelings- the ups and downs,
The taking of two steps forward and the three back;
How could I have imagined that my marriage failed from the start?
The little things people had noticed before we got married- never mentioned,
I am tired of the “let her go and get over it” statements,
The clichéd “time heals all wounds”-is fucked up beyond immeasurable!
How could I thought I would never heal?
Anger, hate, loathing, loneliness, and fear,
No longer part of my vocabulary- rather hope is.
After all I am still a father of my -who still loves me,
And it gives me a new direction and the will to go on.
Life is full of catastrophes of the heart,
We have to take it one step at a time, breath in and out;
I will focus on the here and now, the past and the future nonexistent,
Rather my soul will be ever present in my new life, a new beginning!
I remember vividly the day I found out my marriage ended. Very emotional and painful day. We all suffer pain and the deep hurt when relationships end. What made it easier for you to deal with the break up?
VF
June 25, 2013
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Fond Love
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Posted:Jun 24, 2013 7:43 pm
Last Updated:Jun 27, 2013 8:53 am
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I am fond of beautiful women,
The curves of their body, their welcoming smile,
And their shapely legs;
I am fond of alluring women,
Their subtle sexiness, their come hither look,
And their mysterious and majestic confidence;
I am fond of intelligent women,
Their wit and charm- it captivates me,
And their flirting banter
I have found her,
The witty alluring beautiful lass,
My soul entwined with hers -fond love.
I am not happy with the ending...can anybody help with this ending...it doesn't flow like the rest of the poem. I like this poem...my thoughts on women who I find attractive. Who do you find attractive and why?
VF
June 23, 2013
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All In
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Posted:Jun 22, 2013 10:41 pm
Last Updated:Jul 23, 2013 5:15 pm
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I am all in
Your smile, the twinkle in your eye, and the smoothness of your skin,
I am captivated with your inner beauty and outer glow;
I am all in
Your kindness,warmheartedness, and affections,
I am humbled by your generous and compassionate heart;
I am all in
Your wit, intelligence, and openness,
I am impressed with your grace and charm
I am all in
You had me at hello-what more can I say,
I am yours for now and eternity
I am reflecting on "falling" in love. Here is what I came up with. Do you recall when you fell in love and how it made you feel?
VF
June 22, 2013
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Musings!
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Posted:Jun 22, 2013 6:04 am
Last Updated:Jul 24, 2013 8:54 am
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I am sitting here this morning looking over my blog and reading comments, and I noticed a little set of numbers above right side of my posts. It shows the date and time I post, but it also shows the number of viewers. I look at some of the numbers...over 200.."what?" I think to myself. I have only started blogging since May 20, 2013, and I have that many viewers. Wow! I did not know I would even have one viewer much less over 200. I am very humbled and very appreciative. I started this blog to analyze and process my thoughts and feelings. I was recently hurt by a relationship ending and I needed to vent and process.
Here it is a month later and I find this blog site is very addictive and very soothing. I can process my emotions and feelings. And, I noticed that the comments are 100% supportive, which I find very comforting. I again want to thank my readers and watchers, you guys are so AWESOME!
Now, here are my Japanese lover.net weirdisms:
1. I noticed that most people keep their viewing very secretive...but the funny thing is that Japanese lover.net still tracks them for me..it tally's their visits to my site.
2. People who watch web cams also are hidden. But I do know I get watchers due to the fact my profile views also increase right after I stop my web cam.
3. There seems to be lots of bots and fake profiles. If the girl are young...in their early twenties and they are emailing me...they are definite fakes...they want my email or they ask me to email them. It only took me answering three of their adds to figure it. I must be a little slow. Here I thought I was being flattered by them...lol!
4. I had to redo my signature twice since starting this blog....where did it go? Did it find a blog site it liked and it stayed for long visit? Maybe it was hijacked by a blog site?
Enough of my musings! Again, thank you for reading my blog. Let me know how to make it better or at least maybe give some ideas on what topic on my next attempt at poetry! See ya later. VF
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Fading into Eternity
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Posted:Jun 20, 2013 10:19 pm
Last Updated:Jun 22, 2013 2:32 pm
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The sky is calling out the cerulean blue
Willowing clouds floating above makes me think and sigh,
Of Loves blossoming into something so true,
Or to wither on the vine to die,
Here lies the fragmented soul of the lovelorn,
Longing for the perfect being to mend it and make whole,
Time moves ever fleeting for the earth-born,
To start as a newborn only to end as withered man to condole;
The day’s line up as forgotten yesterdays ascends,
Whilst tomorrow's dreams drifts toward infinity,
My memory of you is ever present,
Yet fading into eternity.
I not really happy with this one...its a work in progress! By the way, I want to thank my watchers and my viewers to my blog. I appreciate you guys stopping by to check to read it.
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HNW business !
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Posted:Jun 19, 2013 9:36 pm
Last Updated:Sep 7, 2016 4:26 pm
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Here is my business pic...ugly business tie!!! I hope you guys like it!!!
HNW Bloggers
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Hunger
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Posted:Jun 18, 2013 10:30 pm
Last Updated:Aug 25, 2013 8:14 pm
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I know what you hunger for. You hunger for a man who hungers for your face, your smell, your taste, your body, your sensual skin. You hunger for a man who loses himself in your eyes. You hunger for man who hungers for your sensual voice. You hunger for a man who hungers for you breasts and hungers for your loving caress.
You hunger for a man who notices that you light up a room. You hunger for a man who wants to taste your tears and then feed them back to your lips and tongue. You hunger for a man who makes you kneel when he stands before you and feeds his cum to you- you hunger for more. You hunger for a man that cradles your head in his lap and softly whispers you name. You hunger for a man that grabs your hair and kisses passionately. You hunger for a man that overwhelms you with kisses and overpowers you with his love. You hunger for man who knows how you feel with a look. You hunger for man who makes you feel safe.
You hunger for a man who picks you off the floor and then fucks you hard against his wall. You hunger for man who loves you dressed up and then rips the clothes right of your back. You hunger for a man that lets your cry in his arms and tells you ‘everything will be alright.’ You hunger for a man that walks in your life and turns your world upside down and topsy turvey. You hunger for a man that makes you hang on his every word, every look, every smile, and every kiss. You hunger for a man that makes you addicted to his love. You hunger for a man who hungers for you and your love. You hunger for a man who makes feel like this.
I did not write this...it was on Japanese lover.net in many different versions. I changed it to fit me! If you know the original author, let me know so that I can give proper due!
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Searching for Love’s Banter
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Posted:Jun 18, 2013 6:43 am
Last Updated:Jun 21, 2013 10:42 am
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Life’s a mystery to me,
The unpredictable causes too many ups and downs;
I know I must be flexible- to wait and see,
The not knowing causes a bristled frown.
Where is my place in the scheme of things?
How do I know if I am taking the right path?
I try to keep my chin up, but it still stings,
Alas, too much heartache causes a tear’s wrath.
I have a loved filled heart,
My soul willing to give and to receive,
A quintessence of your being- the ultimate consort.
My mind resolved- waiting for loves reprieve.
The eternal mystery never announces the answer,
I must be a willing vessel of forbearing and acceptance,
To tango and flutter with a multitude of love’s banter,
I am the willing servant of romance and patience!
I guess I am still hurting from a previous relationship. I am getting better everyday. I miss the romance and I miss being a couple. I never know what direction my muse takes me when I write...it leads me down a path of internal processing. Thanks for stopping by and reading my blog!
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Artful Composition of Love
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Posted:Jun 16, 2013 7:40 am
Last Updated:Jun 13, 2015 9:14 am
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All am is a blank canvas, waiting for that someone special to color my soul,
I need the hue and contrast of past heartaches to give me perspective,
The light and mood must be right-or the composition is all wrong.
Do we have the unity and the balance?
Or do we feel awkwardly out of place?
Is our focus as one?
Or we wandering around in space, lost?
I need proportion-too many highs and too much lows mess with my equilibrium.
Do we have a pattern of fitting together?
I need to feel a part of you and you need to a part of me,
We have to have a shared value- a tone of shared beliefs.
Does our soul and feelings line up?
Timing is everything, where are we with this?
Our movements must be toward something;
Coloring and filling in our love is not done in haste,
Rather in joy and exploration
This painting of love is unique and special;
Abstract or portrait it matters not, as long it true and honest.
I wait with paintbrush in hand-anticipating my next love’s stroke.
Will you sit for me…and be my subject?
I was in a artsy mood last night when I wrote this...listening to jazz and I also recently bought some prints! The music and the new prints got me thinking of art composition and one thing led to another. I hope you enjoy this. I think it's one of my favorites!
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Treat me like a Man
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Posted:Jun 14, 2013 9:47 pm
Last Updated:Jun 21, 2013 10:36 am
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Men like me are special
Some men like everything that they see
Some will chase
Some like the wait
With me there's something you should get straight
I'm not like the others
Won't keep it under cover I'm all up in your face
With everything I say
And I don't give me away
I'm all up in your face
With everything I say I won't give up
So come on down from those clouds
You've been hangin' with the wrong damn crowd
Better treat me like a man
Throw those hands in the air
Do something so I know you care
Better treat me like a Man
Don't get too comfortable
That ain't good
I will Fuck you like a Man should
Stay with me
Play with my cock
Always remember to stop and stare
I'm not like your father
Don't treat me like your brother
So get up in my face
I want you in my space
And I don't give that away
Get up in my face
I want you in my space
I won't give in
So don't be scared but beware
You’re gonna get it if you're not right there
Better treat me like a man
If I'm in love I would die
For the women that gives me chills inside
Better treat me like a man
Men like me are special
Girls like me
Some men like everything that they see
So come on down from those clouds
You've been hangin' with the wrong damn crowd
Better treat me like a man
Put those hands in the air
Do something so I know you're there
Better treat me like man
So don't be scared but beware
You’re gonna get it if you're not right there
Better treat me like a man
If I'm in love I would die
For the women that gives me chills inside
Better treat me like a man
Men like me are special
Girls like me
Some men like everything that they see
I changed up the lyrics to the song "Treat Me Like a Women" sung by Lisa Stansfield. I hope you like my interpretation. This song is one of my favorites and I thought it could fit for a man also!
Written by HAMMOND-HAGAN, GEORGE/HAMMOND-HAGAN, JOHN/DIOGUARDI, KARA
Published by EMI Music Publishing Girls like tea
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