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Just to Touch You
Just to Touch You I was rummaging through a kitchen drawer last Saturday, looking for a pair of scissors, when I came across this hand written, faded letter, in an envelope, addressed to me. It was from Dianne - an ex girlfriend, from long ago. I opened it, sat down and began to read... Dear Paul, I woke up in the middle of the night and reached across the bed, just to touch you - but you weren't there. My pillows still smell like you, and I. am already sorry for saying what I said to you. But I really don't understand how you can be such an asshole sometimes. You play this game with my heart and you think you can get away with it because of your cute ass and those fucking eyes of yours. You know you can hypnotize me with the words you say and how you say them, and you do that on purpose. There's a name, a word , for a man like you. It describes who you are and how you selfishly, seduce and treat women. I just can't think of that name right now, but YOU know it! I said to you, that I could change, so just give me time. Give me a chance. You know we're good together. We are fucking good together and yet you treat US, as if it's just a sex thing. It's more than that. Much more ! If what you said to me last night is true and if that's the way you feel - then I don't want to see you again. And that's MY truth ! You know I love you Paul. You know we could make this work ! Can't we try? Love Dianne I held that scrawled, rambling, repetitive note in my hand - and paused. Dianne's seething anger toward me, was obvious. She likely, might have been hammered, when she wrote it. I mean honestly... I could not have been, sooo horrible, that she would call me a lothario - that name she was searching for. Nor was I as shallow, as she implied I was... She must have been confused... I was in my mid twenties when I met her, and I recall that Dianne and I were only together for about a year. Aside from the sex - I didn't think we had that much, going for us. I was never with her again, after the night she wrote me that letter. And I only saw her, one other time, in my life. She was in a packed, smoky and sweaty night club, with her new boyfriend. They were crammed shoulder to shoulder, sharing a wobbly, grimy little table, with a half dozen people. I was with a couple of my friends - and we were leaving that dive . The music was loud, Dianne and I made eye contact, smiled meekly at each other and tried to say hello. I felt sorry for her. She didn't look, particularly happy. Her sullen eyes followed me as I passed. I looked at the letter, I still held in my hands. I folded it up into the envelope, put it in the drawer and pushed the drawer shut - then sat there for a few seconds more. Finally, I shook my head, got up from the chair, and continued my search... for those elusive scissors. © October 2018 Paul P. ............................................................... So... Have you ever been in a relationship where you saw things one way and your lover, saw things, in a completely different way ? Do ever think about an 'ex' of yours and wonder what might have been, or what happened to them? BTW... Lothario is a nefarious character in the 1605 novel - 'Don Quixote'. Another word to describe him would have been - womanizer .. . Oh, and the scissors were found where I left them last time I used them - right on my office desk. . . ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O |
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I didn't receive too many letters from girls. I had a few birthday cards and such... But I kept that note... ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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I've run into a few girls who I dated. One, some 20 years later. She was married with kids and we shared a few laughs. She had matured into a fine looking, intelligent woman! But that's a story for another blog post. ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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I think everyone has haven't heard but it is ok to disagree ?
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I think everyone has haven't heard but it is ok to disagree ? ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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Have I ever ...? Do I ever ...? *sigh* yes Opportunity may knock only once, but temptation bangs on the door forever!
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Have I ever ...? Do I ever ...? *sigh* yes ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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Wow. I guess it's a good thing that you and your ex are talking - at least about your kids and related issues. Boy that might bug me if I saw all my ex's in this city on a regular y. Lol... Thankfully it's too big (the city I meant)! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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10/23/2018 9:07 am |
I lived with a girl when I was in my 20s, she constantly fucked around behind my back, but never saw it that way. I even offered her an open relationship to make room for her panty dropping ways, but she would always say she was committed to me. Other than that, we were great together, the sex was unbelievable, probably due to all of her "practice". We eventually broke up over that, but I did find her about 5 yrs ago in a small town in Florida and sent her a letter asking how she was. I received a letter back a few weeks later. She was still in love with me, ready to leave her live-in-boyfriend of 5 yrs, and did I know how much a bus ticket to San Antonio was. Apparently, she's still a fuck-around-girl and now she's added some crazy to her personality. I shut down the conversation real quick. You should give Dianne a call, and ask how is she doing. Careful, bitches be crazy.
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i don't think so, sure I have found memories of relations past but for the most part i have always moved on...I hope you have a great day..
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The 'Remeber When' pathway is a painful one, for sure! Eee ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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i don't think so, sure I have found memories of relations past but for the most part i have always moved on...I hope you have a great day.. ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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Why did you re-fold the letter and put it back in the drawer and not just throw it out???
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a man who behaves selfishly and irresponsibly in his sexual relationships with women. is the meaning of ..Lothario ..
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Why did you re-fold the letter and put it back in the drawer and not just throw it out??? ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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a man who behaves selfishly and irresponsibly in his sexual relationships with women. is the meaning of ..Lothario .. ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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And it sounds to me like you're having a great time here... I can see your smile from here! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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sTILL. NO point in keeping it.
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celibacy........hahahahah yeah you!
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sTILL. NO point in keeping it. ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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celibacy........hahahahah yeah you! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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celibacy........hahahahah yeah you! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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celibacy........hahahahah yeah you! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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This cuts me up- snork-scissors- shoulda cut up the letter or better yet- framed it and hung it up as a reminder Yes, once in a while I am reminded of someone when he sends me a drunken email, which I ignore. Snuck off back to CA and never told me he was going ( email from the road) back to his swinger lady from 20+years ago. It didnt work out and I think he's lost in California gold { see pic} (Virtual Symposium Group) use Virtual Symposium Group
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This cuts me up- snork-scissors- shoulda cut up the letter or better yet- framed it and hung it up as a reminder Yes, once in a while I am reminded of someone when he sends me a drunken email, which I ignore. Snuck off back to CA and never told me he was going ( email from the road) back to his swinger lady from 20+years ago. It didnt work out and I think he's lost in California gold { see pic} .... Drunken emails and phone calls.. Ahh... Love! Yes.. But it's exquisite pain is something we all still strive to breath.... over and over again.. (even if we won't admit it). Thanks again for the motivation! True! ❤️😉👍😊 You and I both know, this one is yours... Lol... ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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I'm happy to make you smile. Rest assured, my only reason for being here is to make people smile. It's a goal of mine - 'here and everywhere I walk. Glad to be a part of your smile my dear! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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yes I know its all fiction ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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10/23/2018 8:24 pm |
You know you are digging deep in a drawer if you are reading a letter! Not many even know what a letter is or how you write one. Mine had a lot of xoxo and 💕 hearts ♥️. I would even spray them with my perfume 😂. Every Ex I am friends with on FB. It’s fun seeing how life turned out. I never burn bridges or hold grudges. Life is precious and who I was when I was in my 20’s is not who I am today. 💕💕 Yes, I have felt differently then a few of my ex’s. They wanted more and I didn’t. It’s sad and difficult to be on different pages. To this day : I have 2 ex’s who want more- if I did.
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Occasionally, I have kept some mementos. But it didn’t take long before I tossed them out because the relationships were finished and there was no point in hanging onto them. Question: were the scissors symbolic of trying to cut the ties of the past with Diane?
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Occasionally, I have kept some mementos. But it didn’t take long before I tossed them out because the relationships were finished and there was no point in hanging onto them. Question: were the scissors symbolic of trying to cut the ties of the past with Diane? Ooooo... That scissors symbolism is something that I didn't even think about. Hmmm. Yep perhaps you are right, That's a good one! Can I use that in my book report? ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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no...i gave my ex way too many times...because i thought i could possible change him...well, i know, he can't be something he is not...he was a chronic cheater with border line multiple personality...so i gave him the ultimatum, and all the sudden, he wanted me, because i am something he can't have any longer...well...too late for that...he should have known...so never look back...and i am happy now...
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no...i gave my ex way too many times...because i thought i could possible change him...well, i know, he can't be something he is not...he was a chronic cheater with border line multiple personality...so i gave him the ultimatum, and all the sudden, he wanted me, because i am something he can't have any longer...well...too late for that...he should have known...so never look back...and i am happy now... ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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Wow. That's a classic! It does seem like, when you can no longer have something - that's when you what it and realize what you've lost. Worthy of a blog post? Nice to see you on my side of the building. 🎃 your cute ass, and those eyes...and way with words...like she said...oh you still got it, don't you...
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oh i have been keeping my eyes on you... your cute ass, and those eyes...and way with words...like she said...oh you still got it, don't you... ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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oh i have been keeping my eyes on you... your cute ass, and those eyes...and way with words...like she said...oh you still got it, don't you... But, I'm not 20 .. Good to see you girl. I've had my eye on you as well! Lol 😁 ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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I got in B-I-I-I-I-G trouble once for calling someone a Lothario. I was writing about the first spanking party that I ever attended. One of the men there seemed quite popular - in fact when he was spanking a cute young thing, he had ANOTHER cute young thing acting as his assistant, handing him various implements. I referred to him as a "spanky Lothario". As it happened, he read my piece (posted over on Fetlife) and he did not like that. Not. One. Bit. Once I actually looked up the meaning, I had to apologize to him. Basically I was just impressed that a middle aged guy was able to have not one but two cute young women in his scene....and I was using it as synonym for someone who was popular with the ladies. Oops. That was a lesson learned to be more precise with my phrases (and also to keep in mind that someone who I'm talking about might read my post).
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I got in B-I-I-I-I-G trouble once for calling someone a Lothario. I was writing about the first spanking party that I ever attended. One of the men there seemed quite popular - in fact when he was spanking a cute young thing, he had ANOTHER cute young thing acting as his assistant, handing him various implements. I referred to him as a "spanky Lothario". As it happened, he read my piece (posted over on Fetlife) and he did not like that. Not. One. Bit. Once I actually looked up the meaning, I had to apologize to him. Basically I was just impressed that a middle aged guy was able to have not one but two cute young women in his scene....and I was using it as synonym for someone who was popular with the ladies. Oops. That was a lesson learned to be more precise with my phrases (and also to keep in mind that someone who I'm talking about might read my post). ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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Still married don’t have an ex. He does leave me notes. Hugs V Become a blog watcher sweet_vm
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Still married don’t have an ex. He does leave me notes. Hugs V ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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Hi . . . If you are this far down into the comments section , then thank you for your patience . . lol I just posted an interesting , terrifying , little story about early childhood memories - click the link and let me know if you agree. Almost Ripped To Shreds 47 ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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Nov 3, I just renamed this story - It Was Just Sex The old title of this story was - Just To Touch You Both were good... I don't know... Messing around... ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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This story used to be called - Just To Touch You I renamed it today, to :She Wanted More Than Sex. If you can think of a better title, please comment.. And I'll use it and give you props for it! ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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I just posted a new blog post Burgandy Rockey My Burgundy Rocket , a story about risks and speed and the chances we take. ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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